Forgiveness....

They say to forgive is divine.... but I wonder why? I am trying to move forward from something very hurtful and I am wondering how to do that....
I started writing those words back in August of last year and I never finished.
My life has been crazy since then and I am finally trying to get back to the place where I was before. Being in love is an adventure....there are so many things to learn so many things to avoid and so many things to experience. This adventure that I have been on for the past year and a half has been trying for me. I try so many times to put my feelings into words and sometimes its difficult. Not every thing is sunshine and butterflies, sometimes its thunder and rain, thats the best way to put it. In trying to walk away I have only made our bond stronger and some days I wonder what is happening? Where are we going? I dont know.....

Love is crazy...

Love is crazy and I have to say that in the past few months I have learned to be patient and I have been dissapointed. I have to say that I have also been loved and once you have been loved by someone special your heart is never the same again....
They say it is hard to be loved and trust when you have been treated bad in the past, that is so true. It makes you doubt everything and everyone... it makes all of those beautiful and kind words seem like BS. I was thinking why is it that we listen to negativity all the time and believe the most outrageous things? Yet we never believe someone whole heartedly when they say they love us???? Maybe love is not the crazy one...maybe it is me.

Graduation

So my baby graduates on Friday I am so excited for her and yet so sad for me. I dont know why but it just makes her seem "gone" already. She already has her plans for the future and I think wasnt she just a baby? lol... Time flies when you are having fun! Congrats to my girl she has worked hard for this and there were times when she didnt think she was going to make it and she felt like giving up but she didnt and now she has come to the final chapter of her highschool years! (tear)Her class will graduate at Red Rocks I have attached a pic its a beautiful place and the memory will be even sweeter for her. I saw MANA in concert there and it was so cool lol not related to this post but that came to mind.

Pan de Coco

Pan de Coco....ok so my honey has been asking me to make him Pan de Coco almost since we met. I finally found a recipe and made it for him to my delight he loved it as did the rest of his family! I ended up baking bread for 3 days in a row! My kids loved it as well as did the rest of my family. Here is the recipe I have to triple it to feed my family but its great. It is not sweet as you might think but much rather like regular dinner rolls even though you can taste the coconut milk...on that note the Goya coconut milk is the best one to use.If you are a baker this one is for you, enjoy!!!!


Makes 8 rolls
Ingredients
1/2 cup unsweetened finely grated coconut
2 tablespoons sugar
1 (1/4-ounce) package active dry yeast
1/2 cup warm water
3 1/2 cups flour, plus more for kneading
3/4 teaspoon salt
1 cup coconut milk
3 tablespoons butter or non-hydrogenated vegetable shortening, melted

Method
Put coconut, sugar, yeast and water into a small non-reactive bowl and stir briefly. Set aside until mixture is swollen and bubbly, about 15 minutes.
Mix flour and salt together in a large bowl. Add yeast mixture, coconut milk and butter. Using your hands or a wooden spoon, stir until well combined.

Turn dough out onto a well-floured surface and knead, dusting with more flour as necessary, until soft and elastic, 5 to 6 minutes. Form dough into a ball, dust generously all over with flour and transfer to a clean large bowl. Cover bowl with a kitchen towel and set aside in a warm spot to let rise until doubled in size, about 1 1/2 hours.

Divide dough into 8 pieces and roll each into a ball. Arrange balls of dough on a large greased baking sheet, spacing them 3 to 4 inches apart. Set aside in a warm spot, uncovered, to let rise until doubled in size again, about 45 minutes.

Preheat oven to 350°F. Bake bread until deep golden brown and cooked through, 20 to 25 minutes. Serve warm or set aside to let cool to room temperature.

My babies

I mentioned that I have 4 kids and each one of them are different and unique... My boys are such men already at almost 15 and just turned 16 and that is a little scary in itself. My little one is not so little she will be 10 this year and my "baby" she will be 18 in July. Graduation is right around the corner and I am so excited for her she has accomplished so many things and soon she will be on her way to college and to be a nurse. Wow where does the time go? Life is strange and wonderful all at the same time!